I feel sorry that the top answer hits too fucking close to home. I try to avoid negative spirals of self-pity these days but every line of that reply is disgustingly relatable. Nothing’s ever fair in life and this is probably on the bottom of the list of things wrong with me but it’s hard not to think about it and let it infect my attitude and confidence. Self-deception and a constant a state of denial of the facts and what I’ve heard the people express over the years is not ideal. I try. Maybe I’m just not hard enough.